I HAD FUN ON 14 FEBRUARYYY! :D
haha.
i wish the night would never enddd.
beacuse kan its full of laughters uhhh.
serious,serious.
every second of it is lovedddddd.
and thnks Syiqs fr th treat ehhh.
anddd i wish there will be plenty of this kind of outinggg.
only that jangan la samapi malammalam sangat.
hahaha.
and girls, thnks for the huggg! :D
it actually make me feel better.
as usual, my darlingggs of 4D
never fail to make me laugh macam nyonya gilerrrrr. :D
its too fun that im so lazy to elaborateeeeeee.
tengok la,si pemalas nihhh.

abeeee tadi gi jemputann kat bukit batok.
and the venue of this wedding reception is so so so so so deep deep deep deep
inside of bukit batok.
like really deeeeep that.
only ONE bus drive pass thereee.
so when we go there, we took a cab.
but when we went home, we waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaalk like marathon to th 66 bus stop after the Westmall bustop thereeee.
haha,imagine thaat.
its like a thirty minutes plusplus.
haha.
then,got inside jokeee uhhh with my sisterrrr.

"wahhhhh.akhirnya sampai bukit batok nya bus stop ehhh! ingatkan da kat marine parade!"
andddddddd.
"rasa macam kat bukit gombak pulaaaaaaak!"
*padahal masih kat bukit batok uhhh!)
haha.
then throught out buat jokes ngan my sister.
abe got one incident at the carpark.
my adik ter-tripped on on a tree branch.
those thin ones with a few branches sticking out.
then and a nearby block got a group of malay guysss lagi leapklepak uhh.
abe i thought no body so i pick it up.
and act like some kind of mum chasing after her daughter with a caneee.
abe when i turn to my right.
i just saw the group of malay guys staring at me.
and some even standing up(?)
alamak,paisehhh uhhh!
i threw the stick down and act like super elegant uhh,macam wanita melayu terakhir uhh!
(padahal.padahal)
haha,paisehhh oiii! D:
oke,still cant stop thinking and laughing about it. xD

Are you even listening when I talk to you?
Do you even care what I'm going through?
Your eyes stare and they're staring right through me
You're right there but it's like you never knew me

-revenge is sweeter (than you ever were), the veronicas

i d k, but part of me yesterday doesnt feel like going out.
because what i saw was expected.
and it really hurts.
i cant believe i just broke down in front
of the world.
i was holding back the whole time.
maybe i just cnt take it any longer.
and i started to wonder.
why is it so hardddd?
to forget everything and move on.
when i used to face this.
am i not stronger any more?
when i used to believe,
i grew stronger with every tears i cried.
dont you see.
im brokennn.

still,whats th use?
when you simply show you dont even careee.
maybe you do.
maybe im so full of myself.
maybe i just want you to just have a little bit of attention.
i dont like it when i have to be th one.
to start us talking.
im not desperate for attention,i swear.
just, a little concern and attention.

recall,
when its over between us.
is there even A DAY you ask me if im oke?
if im coping well?
if i need a shoulder to cry on?
or even,
how are you?
hows life?
its not that im THAT desperate for attention.
and i know how euu feel after all this.
all those guilt and painn.
i dont findd you baddd.
there is a reason behind everything that happen.
but please.
you promised we will be 'teman mesra'
i hopedd on it.
just treat me like one.
(oke,you are,i guess. except for the cracking jokes and asking about me part and all those stuffs)


i just miss you.
you know that?